Valentine’s Day Vortex

This last weekend was Valentine’s Day weekend.  My wife and I did very little.  Like many people, I don’t really understand the purpose of Valentine’s Day.  I try to show my love for my wife more frequently than just 1 day out of the year.  She has a good idea on how much she means to me, although certainly I can do a much better job at expressing it.  I’m naturally an introverted person, so I find it difficult to express my emotions to people, even people that are close to me.

I’m significantly better at it than I was even 5 years ago and I’m light years ahead of where I was 25 years ago in school, when I rarely said a word during class and shivered at the thought of a girl even speaking to me.  That brings me back to one time that a girl, Mary Jo Seidel (I think that’s was her last name) asked me why I was so quiet.  I panicked and froze.  To this day, I have no idea why I did that.  It was such a simple question, yet I acted like my world came crashing down.  It was such a silly reaction.  I’m glad I no longer react like that.  But, even though I’m no longer that bad, I’ve still got a long ways to go to get over myself (which is what my ever forgiving and observant wife tells me is my problem).

It’s those comments by my wife that make me appreciate her not just on Valentine’s Day but every day.  She has the ability to call me out when I exhibit irrational behavior.  I’ve learned a lot from her over the past 7 years that I’ve known her and I will probably learn a lot more in the rest of our lifetimes that we spend together.  So, even though we may not celebrate lavishly on Valentine’s Day (heck, we just ordered out for pizza), I’d like to think that we celebrate our love for one another every day by just how we treat and learn from one another.


Mindboggling Musings of a Minnesotan trapped in Oz

Hi to anyone that may ever read this.  I have no idea what ever will become of this site, where it will take me or what even it will ever be about.  Right now, it’s just going to be some random musings about my life and my experiences.  Maybe sort of a diary or journal, as the late great Jim Rohn said I should do on a daily basis.  Maybe some discussion about my favorite football team, the Minnesota Vikings.  Maybe some random discussion about that nutjob known as Sam Brownback, who is the governor of my current state.  Maybe some discussion about insurance, which is the current field I work in.  Maybe about the activities that I enjoy doing, whether it be running, Hardball Dynasty or watching crime shows with the love of my life. I don’t know.   But, let’s start and see where it takes me.

Right now, I sort of feel not necessarily at a crossroads in life, but sort of a purgatory.  It’s not necessarily a bad thing, but it’s sort of aggravating as well.  Financially, my wife and I are making progress on paying off our credit cards, using our own modified version of the Dave Ramsey method.  I can see the light at the end of the tunnel, but it still seems so far away. At work, I’m in-between major projects, so my workload is pretty light right now and so I’m at a standstill until the next major project begins.  My wife is winding down the time at her job since we’re moving closer to where my job is, but that’s still 4 months away, so it’s too early to begin major packing, but still we can see that coming up soon, so the anticipation is getting greater.

These situations create a sense of excitement, yet madness at the same time. It creates a buzz of activity mentally, but angst of idleness simultaneously.  Maybe a little meditation will help…but that may just cause more angst and aggravation as well.   Running can help with that as well. Maybe I’ll try a little of that tonight, because for far too long now, I’ve been off that wagon, and I generally feel a little better after a quick mile or so on the treadmill.  Like the Nike slogan famously stated, I’m just gonna do it.

Thanks for reading my first post and have a great day!